Another Elephant

When this blog page first started, it was meant to be a companion to a sketchbook project. However, I did not do the sketchbook project. After all, I am done with education and if I do not feel like doing my homework, I guess there is no one to make me.

In truth though, I do not think it was me being lazy that prevented me from doing a simple project. Instead, I think I could not find my way into the project because it is not a process I am using right now. Currently I use my photography as a sketchbook of sorts. It's been a continuation from a 'project' I laid out over 10 years ago in college to part of how I work.

And that I think is the crux of the 'sketchbook'. It should be a tool, aid, idea generator, a conversation, critique, diary, or whatever else kind of support one can need to make those bigger (metaphorically, not literally) pieces. And should not be limited to conventional pages in a book.

My sketchbook is a photo-archive that contains thousands, maybe hundreds of thousands of images. Most of which are landscape in nature.

Who wants to see that? Maybe someone somewhere, but that's not the point. It's not for anyone to SEE, it's for me to do some molding, plying, learning and maybe a little laughing with just a tinge of self derision for having the sack to make THAT picture yet again and thinking mine might work.

Take that how you will.

So, elephants in the room still inspire me. Better yet, they are kind of my life... all of our lives. And sometimes I enjoy the tension and anxiety, and sometimes I barely register it, and sometimes 'it' (the elephant) follows me around from place to place.

My elephant is my own self-consciousness.... who is yours?